MY SWEET SWEET GIRL!

Dear Adaleigh,

Its mommy, Today is December 14th, 2011. If you don't know yet, I think you are the most amazing, beautiful, little girl that I have never met. You are so special to me. I love spending every moment of every day with you. Your kicks can make me smile, laugh, cringe, double over, gasp for air, or most of all just adore you more. Your daddy still thinks your kicks are weird or cool, but if only for a moment he could feel that special bond we have and the way you communicate to me with your movements.

 Every morning when I wake up I rub my belly and tell you good morning, because I know how special each moment can be and how short life is. I have never wanted anything more than I have wanted you. Your daddy, and I and a lot of special people have been praying for you before you were ever conceived. We can not wait to meet you in a few weeks. Thank you for bringing so much joy to our lives.

I think about you every day and wonder what you will look like. Will you have my eyes or daddies smile? What color is your hair? Is it curly or straight? All I know is that you will be beautiful and we will love everything about you.

Please stay in a few more weeks and then come out on your own! We are praying for a healthy mom healthy baby and a non medicated childbirth. Can not wait to meet you hold you squeeze you and kiss you. You are the best thing that ever happened to us. Love you more than you will ever know.

-Love you sweet princess Adaleigh Raine!

New Mexico Life Update!

We love New Mexico, and absolutely love being a family again. Being at home with Rob is such a blessing and I Cherish every moment we are together as a family.

I miss my mom and dad, but know that this is where the Lord wants us to be right now. We are very grateful for everything our families have done to support us in this journey.

New Mexico is very different than Florida. Some of my favorite things: People are nicer, Doesn't rain everyday, Looking out my window just to see the beautiful mountains, Enough snow to make it feel like winter without having to shovel the driveway, Living on base and feeling safe walking around the neighborhood.
Things I miss about Florida: My amazing friends, family and church family, having the beach around the corner (even though I never really went).

Rob is enjoying his job and all the new experiences he is having, and I really love getting to be a housewife, and can not wait to bring home the new addition to our family.

Growing Like a Weed!! 32 Weeks!

32 Weeks!

Wednesday December 14, 2011

How Far Along: 32 Weeks 4 days

Baby's Size: Squash ~18.5 inches (head to foot) around 3.5-4 lbs.

Symptoms: Burping? Uncomfortable at times, Sleepy, Lazy, Moody, Carpal Tunnel

 

Sleep: Carpal tunnel is super painful at night I always end up sleeping on my hand and that wakes me up as it is painful. I am a lot more tired and seem to be falling asleep faster.

 

Belly Size: I think I just realized I am getting close to having a baby. My belly is growing like a weed as the Dr. Said. We are measuring 2 weeks a head at 34 weeks.

 

Maternity Clothes: My shirts just don't fit right anymore, so I put on a tank top first to keep my belly from peaking out from underneath.

 

Food Cravings: I have had two cravings once each. Green apple with salt and salad with creamy Italian dressing. 

Gender: Still a Girl!

Movement: She is still very active. Likes to put her booty in my ribs so I cant sit right. I think she will be very long as she is constantly digging her heals in my side. All the ultrasounds show her with her legs stretched out and ankles crossed ( glad one of us is comfy). I love every second of feeling her kick and punch me from the inside and know I will miss it.

What I miss: Being comfortable while driving and having my hands not hurt all the time.

What I'm Looking Forward to this Week: Going to meet our Doula and tour the hospital! 

VIABILITY!

I can not believe this day is here. We have finally reached 24 weeks. At this point the survival rate is about 60% if we were to deliver early. I pray we don't, but my heart is content knowing we have brought her this far. Our little Adaleigh has no idea what kind of world she is about to arrive into. There are so many people that have been praying for her and can not wait to get their hugs and kisses in.

"Adaleigh, you are one loved little girl and we can not wait to spoil you. Someday I will be able to tell you how desperately we wanted you. I know the day we bring you into this world will be the best day Daddy and I have ever had, and it will be hard to share you with all the other people that love you so much! We love you more than you will ever know. You are truly a miracle and our gift from God. We can not wait to meet you."

Daddy Rob Graduates and comes home on Friday!! I know I am just going to lose it the minute I see him. It has been a long 5 months waiting for him to come home. It will be the best feeling to wake up knowing we are not just "visiting" each other. I am taking Rob to see our little princess for the first time on an ultrasound on Saturday. I know nothing compares to being able to physically see that she is healthy and active. Daddy Rob is sooo excited.

We start our journey to New Mexico Sat or Sunday. We are more than ready to get on the road. It is going to be a long 32 hr drive, but sooooo worth it when we arrive. We have a house on base and are very ready to be a family again. I hope to be updating more now that I wont be working anymore.

Till next time...............

24 WEEKS PREGNANT!

 

Saturday, October15, 2011

24 Weeks! Ear of Corn!

Saturday, October 15, 2011

How Far Along: 24 weeks 

Baby's Size: Ear of Cob ~ 12 inches

Symptoms: Just Exhausted most days. Happy there is no more Morning sickness.

 

Sleep: Still sleeping well. I get up a few times in the night but when I do sleep it is good!

Maternity Clothes: Yoga pants are my favorite!

 

Food Cravings: No real cravings. I love all food!!

 

Gender: Still a Girl!! Adaleigh Raine Summerville is due to arrive Sometime between Late January and Early February, and we could not be more thrilled to meet our miracle!

 

Movement: Lots of movement and I love it! Addy likes to kick when I'm sitting I think I'm squishing her. She is still breech and I hope she flip soon. It is the coolest feeling ever and it calms my nerves to know she is so active.

What I miss: Nothing!! I love growing our baby girl. I'm so in love with her already. 

 
What I'm Looking Forward to this Week:   Daddy Rob comes home on Friday!! We can not wait to have him back in our lives. We have missed him like crazy.

Missing her Daddy!!

Just wanted to give everyone an update on Daddy Rob. He has graduated Basic Training and has now moved on to Tech School. I have to say I have one amazing husband that still makes me feel loved even thousands of miles away. I am having a hard time being away this long, but I know God has HUGE plans and it will all be worth it. Being away has made me appreciate our relationship so much more. I am elated that our love is this strong after five years and I pray it will continue to grow stronger.

Rob is very involved with our baby girl. Although he is not here for the ultrasounds, he has jumped in head first in all the planning. Rob designed what her room would look like and has been very involved with her name and anything we register for or buy. I think he is going to make an amazing father to our little girl.

We skype every Saturday and talk every night. Rob is doing great in school and can't wait to be done and be back with his family.

We are hopefully 1-2 weeks away from knowing where we will be stationed. We are both very anxious about that and are ready to start planning!!!

16 weeks!!

I stole this from another friends blog, but I love it. Hope you enjoy it too!!

Avocado!

How Far Along: 16 weeks 1 day

Baby's Size: Avocado (~4.5 inches)

Symptoms: Tired in the evenings but don't need naps. Round ligament pain when I cough and sneeze when stretched out. Hungry.

Sleep: Sleeping better.  Crazy dreams (as usual). Trying not to toss and turn. 

Maternity Clothes: Love the pants with the elastic band that goes up over your belly. The ones that go below my belly hurt. I bought a pair of yoga pants yesterday and I think I might live in them!!                                                                                      

Best moment this week: Creating a registry with my mom. I can not believe this is real. I actually have a beautiful healthy baby growing inside of me.

Food Cravings: No real cravings but sweets, carbs and anything sour are what sound good to me. ( I know I know all the bad stuff!!)

Gender: GIRL!!!! Rob and I are both so excited!!!! Rob has already dreamed up her serene lavender paradise of a room and I am indulging in watching him get excited about our princess to come.

Movement: Felt her move for the first time!! What an amazing feeling. Its actually a really strange feeling. I have felt her two nights in a row. I am in heaven!

What I miss: Being able to wear all the clothes in my closet. However I love being pregnant and showing off the baby bump!

Milestones: Finding out we are having a little girl and feeling her move. Both amazing things. 

The last 2 months!!

The rest of May and June have been a whirlwind.

Rob Left June 1 for Basic training in the Air Force. It is now Week 4 and he is doing great!! I get to talk to him on Sundays for 15 min. Its way to short, but its something.

We are now 9 weeks pregnant. I am feeling pretty good. I have my sick days and my super tired days and most definitely my Emotional days, but I'm loving every moment of it. I can not wait to find out the sex and stop calling it and IT!! Rob really wants a boy so that's what I'm hoping for, but a girl would be just as wonderful.

My family has been amazingly supportive. They are going to all the appointments since Robby is not here to go. I know that kills him. He asks me every week "How is my Baby doing?" makes me cry every time, but am overjoyed to tell him its doing GREAT!!

I was released from my RE and sent to a high risk DR. for next week, that was bittersweet.

I hope to post more often now as we experience new things on this journey.

God bless and thanks for all the prayers!

HOLD ON TIGHT!!

Here we are at our May post!

A little background on this month. We are now on month 3 TTC after 2 previous losses. We did 250 MG of clomid and IUI with trigger shot this month. Dr said scans looked really good and this cycle looked better than last time. At the time of IUI I had two 3 mature Follicle's and two that released. This time Hubby was able to be there and the DR. even let him squeeze the syringe. Mom got to come too. I was trying to relax but this one was much more painful than the last and I cramped for 2 days later. I ate my pineapple like usual and ate healthy and did everything I was supposed to do. I took Robby to the airport on Tuesday the 17th for four days. I was lonely so I had my lil sis come stay with me one night. She said "hey go take a test" I was like OK but it will be negative. I went in later to look at it and it was positive. I think I said something like " oh crap" and Morgan came running in. We went to the store to get a digital test. It came back negative ughh. So I waited impatiently till Friday for my blood work. Got it back around 3 and WERE PREGNANT!!!! Oh my gosh, this is so exciting and so scary. Numbers are a little on the low side so we will need to come back on Monday to see if they are doubling. If they are this will most likely be a good pregnancy.

So I went to the pharmacy and picked up my Lovenox (blood thinner for MTHFR disorder) and took my first shot. OMG burned like no tomorrow. Wow I can not believe I will be doing that everyday for the next 9 months. ughh!! But I cant wait to meet our beautiful miracle.


We are not out of the woods yet so please continue to pray that our numbers go up and I will keep you posted in real time now that we are 8 weeks.

MONTH NUMBER 2 LETS TRY SOMETHING NEW!

OK, so this is my April  post!

Prayed really hard and with the help of my wonderful parents we decided to try IUI, and Clomid. I started with 200MG of clomid and the rest of my meds and just waited. After multiple U/S and waiting I had two beautiful follicle's and it was time for the IUI. The procedure was a little painful, and it sucked that my hubby had to work that day, but my Bestie Kat was there to support me! I went home and ate Pineapple for 5 days (supposed to help with implantation) then waited another week while praying those little swimmers would just pick one egg and go to it!! I mean come on they had 2 to choose from. But after the 2 Week Wait we got a BFN (BIG FAT NEGATIVE)

This was truly a hard month for us. I had felt the Lord telling me I needed to trust and not test early and just to wait on him. (so hard for this control freak), but I know the LORDS timing is always perfect and he has my miracle baby waiting for me someday.

Cant wait to see what next month holds.

ANOTHER CYCLE DOWN!

Ok, so I said I was blogging a month late from now on, so here is my March cycle blog.....

After multiple tests and diagnoses we were now finally able to try again. We did this as a cycle with a Trigger shot and timed intercourse. My Dr. scanned me every few days to check on the growth of my folicles. He wanted to make sure it got to 16mm before we could trigger. Those of you who are not familiar with fertility speak it is a HCG shot that forces your body to have an LH surge that causes ovulation. The Dr. wanted to do this with me because I ovulate late and that might have contributed to my previous losses. So when my follicle was large enough he send us home to baby dance!!

I came in two weeks later for my beta (pregnancy blood test.) No bueno big fat negative!!!

I knew though, I had no symptoms and had taken an HPT at home. Never softens the blow though. Still just as devastating when it seems like everyone around you can get pregnant by just looking at their man.

We plan on continuing next month (April) with fertility meds this time. (Clomid) Keep checking back for more updates!!

We are very excited about the next chapter of our lives to start very soon. Rob (husband) leaves June 1, 2011 for basic training.

From Now On...

Good afternoon my fabulous friends!!

This has been a good week for us. Getting ready for a new journey and very excited! I am going to steal something from someone elses blog that I follow. It worked well for her so I am going to give it a whirl!

I will now be blogging one Cycle (month) behind. So if I blog in April it will be about March. Don't worry I will post the actual dates so your not confused.

I am doing this so Rob and I and our family have some time to process baby news. Unless it is something urgent to post (like another loss) we will be keeping it to ourselves for four weeks. When we do get prego after 12 weeks I will blog as normal.

So I hope you will stay in touch and I will blog again the end of April.

Wish us luck and keep us in your prayers this month as this is our first new month TTC!

February Update!

Ok it has been a while so let me update you. Remember this is a blog about fertility read at your own risk!

I have now been diagnosed with MTHFR and PCOS. I went to see the Dr. Today to get the results of all my tests and what our next step was. First piece of good news was that we could start trying again!! Dr suggested we get on clomid and another fertility medication. He feels that we would be able to bypass some of the things my body does and reduce our chance of a miscarriage.

 As good as that sounds I told you we had some big news coming in our family. Rob (my husband) has joined the Air Force!! I am so proud of him and can’t wait to embark on this new journey with him. However he can only go to basic if he has 2 dependents or less. That means 1 wife (me) and one child (rainbow baby). Clomid and other fertility drugs will release more eggs...i.e. possibly more babies. So we decided to decline the clomid and fertility drugs. I am already on a lot of medication and feel confident that the Lord is going to protect this next pregnancy. We are going to move forward naturally until we get orders from the military. If we are not pregnant by then we will try the clomid at that time. My mom still thinks we are going to have twin boys, so we will see!

The doctor told me PCOS could have also been a contributor to the miscarriages. He said PCOS causes insulin resistance and that can make for a hostile environment to grow a baby. He also said weight is a big factor in that. So he told me no soda and light carbs. No carbs at night. Walk 30 min a day.

Dr Gellman will be monitoring my cycle starting March 10th. Every day by ultrasound to see when I am ovulating. Then he will send us home to baby dance!!

We are ecstatic to start trying again and are praying for a fast, safe and healthy pregnancy to come.

Check back in the next few weeks for another update!!

Praying for a rainbow baby!

FOREVER IN MY HEART 9-30-10 & 12-10-10 MOMMY AND DADDY WILL ALWAYS HAVE A PLACE IN OUR HEART FOR YOU!!

New Dr., New Tests, New Frustrations!

1/14/11 UPDATE:

Since I was diagnosed with MTHFR I have seen two new Dr's. The first one was an high risk OB named Dr. Rivas. He is wonderful!! Dr. Rivas made me feel calm the minute we walked into his office. Dr. Rivas told me to stay on my meds (Neevo DHA, Metanx,) and added a baby aspirin. He also wanted me to see a Genetic Specialist and said she would call to make an appointment. I left feeling so much better and was told to go home and make a baby!!

Well that did not last long. I got a phone call a few days later saying that the Genetic Specialist could not see me until April 29th! I panicked!! That scares the poo out of me. I was supposed to see her to find out if I needed to be on the Lovenox shots for the clotting disorder. I did not want to get pregnant and lose another one, so I called around to see who I could find to see me.

I finally got a hold of Dr. Kenneth Gelman a Reproductive Edrocronoligist. The receptionist was amazing. She made me feel like I was her daughter. She was very concerned that the Dr. had said I could start trying and wanted me to come in right away to be treated.

I saw Dr. Kenneth Gelman on Wednesday January 12th. This Dr. appointment was bitter sweet. He does not feel like the MTHFR is the only thing causing my miscarriages and feels the previous Dr's. Have not tested me enough. (19 vials of blood and HSG test was not enough Wow) So he asked me to come in the next day for an ultrasound and a chromosomal panel. So I did. Thursday I had 11 vials of blood drawn and an ultrasound. The ultrasound showed that I have a beautiful uterus!! But I have polysistic ovaries. I do not however have Polysistic ovarian syndrome (PCOS). The Dr. will put me on Metformin when he puts me on the lovenox. I do have TONS AND TONS of egg follicles!! The Dr. Seemed very impressed with that.

I have two more tests to have done one on Jan 18th and one on Feb 1st. I am having a Saline Sonogram and a endrimetrial biopsy done. Both will be painful and I'm not looking forward to them. Rob (my husband) had 2 tubes of blood drawn and will have to give a sperm sample in a few weeks.

So for now we are just being patient. The Dr. Does not want us trying and will give us the go ahead when all my test come back. Please join us in praying for a rainbow baby!! We hope someday soon we will be able to hold our precious little one that we have dreamed about for so long. Thank you for all your love and support!