5 years and more in love than ever!

Instead of buying one of those $5 cards that eventually goes in the trash, I decided to make a electronic memory that would last a lot longer.

My sweet husband. When we met over 7 years ago, I would have never thought we would be where we are today. I knew within a few weeks that I wanted to marry you. I'm so blessed and thankful you decided you wanted to put up with me too. I look back and remember the long distance, the weekly letters I looked forward to receiving, the surprise of my life when you actually moved to Florida, and the fairytale moment when you swept me off my feet and asked me to be your bride. I wish our wedding would have lasted forever as it was one of the best days of my life. Now 5 years after we said I Do I am more in love with you than ever before. We have gone through our fair share of troubles, but you have been there by my side through every second of financial, educational, infertility, and every health struggle we have had. We have always said from the moment we met we would put God first in everything we do and that is what has made us come out stronger through it all. I am absolutely honored to have gone through multiple moves and career changes with you. I love that you are a man of God a man of integrity, Sweet, sensitive, compassionate, strong, loyal, and honest. I not only love the husband you are but the father you are to our daughter and daughter on the way. Adaleigh is so lucky to have a daddy that is as hands on and involved as you are. My heart lights up every time I hear you ask her for a kiss or a hug or hear you tell her how beautiful she is or how much you love her. I can not wait to meet our new daughter in August and share the new experiences as a family of 4 together. Thank you for loving me All OF ME the way I am and I can not wait to see what the next 50+ years hold for us.

29 week update!

How Far Along: 29 weeks

Baby's Size: Butternut Squash- ~17 inches (head to foot) just under 3 lbs.
Symptoms: Feeling good!  Braxton hicks contractions on and off. Hot as heck this summer!
Sleep: Still sleeping good except with no covers because I'm always hot now. Waking up a few times to use the bathroom. Rolling around a lot to find a comfortable position.
Total Weight Gain: about 8lbs.
Belly Size: I feel smaller this time although I feel like it has gotten much bigger this week. I have a lot of people still telling me I'm small for 29 weeks although I don't feel small at all.
Maternity Clothes: I'm in shorts and tanks every day almost unless I get lucky and can just wear a bating suit. This mama is hot all the time.
Food Cravings: Sweets Chocolate
Gender: Girl
Movement: Still a lot of movement. She feels transverse or breech although she is swimming a lot still I think. I have a Dr apt on Monday so hopefully we will know more about her position then.  
What I miss: This pregnancy I am chasing my 16 month old around so I don't get to just relax when I want to. Sometimes I wish I could just have one weekend to myself to do nothing!
 What I'm Looking Forward to this Week: Doctor's Appointment.

One more Trip.

After saying no a few times, not wanting to travel, knowing we have not completed the baby room or really prepared for our new arrival at all. With the encouragement of my husband, I have made one last trip to sunny Florida to see my parents before our 2nd miracle arrives. The plane ride was long, but after stepping onto solid ground we are glad we are here. One more chance to soak up the sun and quality time with my parents. After all that has happened the last few months I do not take one moment for granted. I love watching my parents gush over our baby girl, and know in just a few short months there will be a 4th grand baby to gush over. As she kicks away in my belly I am overcome with joy. I am thankful my husband continues to sacrifice time away from his Girls to give me family time. I know we both needed this break from reality. Although he is not here with me, he too is able to do things without his two needy girls attached to his hip. After all the tears and stress I really just needed my mommy, and I'm so thankful he recognizes that. Robby you truly are amazing and the perfect man for me, you just get me. So if you need me I will be soaking up the rays at the pool or the beach or just trying to enjoy the laughter and playfulness of my 15 month old, before she becomes one of two.

Our God Grants Miracles!

After 2 weeks my husband was home from training, I know that's not a long time in the military world, but with everything we were going through it sure felt like it. I finally had my best friend home and it felt really good, to hear him say "everything is going to be ok babe, we will get through this together." A few days passed and we went as a family to his Below The Zone Senior Airman Promotion Ceremony. I held my breath as we walked through the doors knowing that his "higher up's" wanted to speak with me about our situation. After the ceremony we were quietly pulled into another room to talk. I held back my fear and tears and explained, I didn't know much, but am coming to terms with the possibilities that I would be facing over the next few months. It was at that moment I was thankful my husband had chosen the Air Force over all other branches. They informed us that anything we needed they would help with. They assured me Rob would never struggle to get time off for any appointments or procedures, and that they would back us up and support us in every way possible. Such a relief to know your husband is in a job with caring people like that.

That next Monday was our appointment with the neurologist. (We got it bumped up). We again as a family armed with 3 pages of questions walked into the cold sterile room, ready for whatever was coming our way. I closed my eyes and said one last prayer before the Dr. walked in. I felt a calm and peace in that instant. The neurologist informed me that what they saw on the MRI was in the same location as an Acoustic Neuroma tumor, but was growing in a different direction and had a slightly different look to it. He said he thinks it is not that but actually a Lipoma instead. Another non cancerous tumor,but one they did not need to remove. He said I was most likely born with it and that hopefully it would not cause me any problems. I couldn't help but burst into tears. I felt 1000lbs lifted off my shoulders. I couldn't help but think I could keep my hearing, and I wouldn't have a disfigured face, or balance issues. I was so relieved, as the Dr. looked at me like I was crazy. He then told me my symptoms were from migraines most likely caused by the pregnancy called migraines aura. They cause you to have vision trouble, numbing in arms or face and then horrible migraines up to 72 hrs. He described me to the t. We will not know for sure what kind of tumor I have until Oct 1 when I have another MRI with contrast after the baby is born, but we are believing God has given us our miracle we asked for. Knowing we can not get through this alone. Thank you for your prayers, they truly work and I am proof!

Rough Night

Tonight is just not a good night. I cant stop crying pity me tears. I feel empty, I feel like no one can understand what I'm going through. I'm angry that I feel like this stuff never ends for me. I just want to enjoy my family. My husband is out of town and I'm stuck in this quiet house while the baby is sleeping with just my thoughts. I get that I'm obsessed with researching, and it doesn't help that there is not much positive info on this stupid tumor, and that I have to wait till the end of May to get any answers at all.But how are you not supposed to think about it? How are you supposed to put it aside and move on with everything else like there is not something major going on in your head? I just found myself falling to my knees praying that God can take this from me. I don't want to think about it I don't want to be "sick" with anything. I want to enjoy this pregnancy and all that comes with it and not think about all the crap that comes with a tumor. I pray that I'm over reacting or that this is all a dream. Tonight I don't want to be a military wife. I don't want to be this far away from family. Its a horrible feeling to look at the clock and realize its midnight and there is no one you feel like you can call and just boo hoo too. I really needed a hug tonight and it makes me miss my husband (my best friend) more than anything tonight. I cant stop the tears they just keep pouring out. My heart hurts, I feel like a horrible mom to my sweet baby girl that has no clue what is going on. She doesn't deserve this empty momma she has right now. I'm praying that I can get some energy in the next few days and stop feeling like a total mess. I don't want to feel this way and I know its not healthy.

Just another bump in the road....

Just when I thought I was in the smooth sailing zone.... Sweet one year old, handsome husband, new baby on the way.... Smack!!! Wake up call Ansley YOU ARE NOT IN CONTROL! After a scary day in the hospital with stroke like symptoms I have been told I have a non cancerous Brain Tumor. Your hearing this as early as I am, and are probably as in shock as I am. I had my cry, woe is me pitty day and now its time to tackle this in Summerville fashion. We do not know the next step although it is likely surgery. I feel great at the moment, and have had no further symptoms. I will have an appointment in the next few weeks with a neurologist that will give us more answers. Baby Elliana is fine and perfectly healthy. We are going to just take one day at a time and pray for God to continue to walk us through this path. He has not let us down yet and I have no doubt he will get us through this next bump in the road. If you read this and know me, you know all I ask from you is PRAYER. We know we can not get through this alone and we are not in control of this situation. I hope to be back on here soon to update with good news!

Lets Catch up!

SOOOOOOOOOOOO Its been a while. Let me catch you up with the last few months. Adaleigh is 14 months and a walking, talking ball of fun! We are currently 21 weeks pregnant with our second daughter Elliana that we conceived using ABSOLUTLY NO FERTILITY TREATMENTS!! We could not be more excited to add another sweet baby to our family. I am feeling great and have a good amount of energy still. I try to get outside with Adaleigh everyday and walk or play. Elliana is a breath of fresh air and a constant reminder that GOD IS GOOD every time she kicks! Rob is adjusting to the life of all girls well :) and I can not wait to have our family of four all together.

Family visits the first few weeks

Just a few of the family members that visited us in the first few weeks.

Birth Photos

From her sweet little nose to the tip of her toes she is perfect! Photos of Adaleigh hrs after birth.

The Day My Life Became Complete

12:30 AM Feb 8 2012: I woke up to my water breaking. Rolled over and elbowed Rob. He moaned something and went back to sleep. I quickly called my midwife, sister, mother, and mother-in-law to tell them to stay posted. No contractions yet, but I wanted them to stay tuned in case some action started. They all told me to go back to sleep. I was way too anxious, but they were sure I was in for a marathon labor and needed to get my rest. So I went back to my room to lay in bed and that's when my world turned upside down.

Boom my contractions started. Not like they tell you (they will be at least 5 min apart, putsy and you will be able to talk in between) No bam 2 min apart instantly like clockwork and very intense. I told Rob to get out of bed and we started timing them. I decided I needed a shower because I wanted to have my hair and make-up done for pictures lol. I quickly realized I would not have time for much as my contractions got more intense and closer together. I tried every position and tip I had learned in my Bradley class. Nothing helped. I was confused, as once again I was told for a few hrs I would be able to continue my normal life. I called my sister to let her know things were moving and could barely get the words out. I did not expect to feel this way this fast. My sister (being a nurse) didn't either and immediately called my family worried about me. That led to my mom calling Rob, which let to me yelling at her 'GET OFF THE PHONE AND GET ON A PLANE!!!"

Rob was busy setting up the birthing room (we decided to have a home birth). My contractions at this point were so intense that the only thing that helped was to get into my bath tub. We called the midwives and asked them to get here immediately. I soon realized I was in the transition stage of labor even though it had just begun. My body was telling me to push, but I was scared. I had never been through this before. So I had no idea what to do and began fighting the urge to push which put me in pain. My midwives got here at 3:30 am and quickly checked me and let me know that I was completely dilated and ready to push. I could not believe what I was hearing. I was then instructed to get in the birthing pool and push when I felt a contraction.

The pool felt amazing. It was warm and I had instant relief. This was the first time in 3 hrs that I could talk in between contractions and had some kind of a break. I pushed when I felt I needed to and at 3:46 Am Adaleigh Raine Summerville was born. It was the most amazing feeling having complete control of our birth. Even though it was fast and very intense, being in my home with my husband was extremely relaxing. No IVs no beeping monitors, no nurses constantly checking me, just our cozy home. Within 15 min of Addy being born I was tucked in my own bed next to my hubby with my princess in my arms. The only thing missing was my mommy. She walked in the door a few hrs later and my life was complete.

MY SWEET SWEET GIRL!

Dear Adaleigh,

Its mommy, Today is December 14th, 2011. If you don't know yet, I think you are the most amazing, beautiful, little girl that I have never met. You are so special to me. I love spending every moment of every day with you. Your kicks can make me smile, laugh, cringe, double over, gasp for air, or most of all just adore you more. Your daddy still thinks your kicks are weird or cool, but if only for a moment he could feel that special bond we have and the way you communicate to me with your movements.

 Every morning when I wake up I rub my belly and tell you good morning, because I know how special each moment can be and how short life is. I have never wanted anything more than I have wanted you. Your daddy, and I and a lot of special people have been praying for you before you were ever conceived. We can not wait to meet you in a few weeks. Thank you for bringing so much joy to our lives.

I think about you every day and wonder what you will look like. Will you have my eyes or daddies smile? What color is your hair? Is it curly or straight? All I know is that you will be beautiful and we will love everything about you.

Please stay in a few more weeks and then come out on your own! We are praying for a healthy mom healthy baby and a non medicated childbirth. Can not wait to meet you hold you squeeze you and kiss you. You are the best thing that ever happened to us. Love you more than you will ever know.

-Love you sweet princess Adaleigh Raine!

New Mexico Life Update!

We love New Mexico, and absolutely love being a family again. Being at home with Rob is such a blessing and I Cherish every moment we are together as a family.

I miss my mom and dad, but know that this is where the Lord wants us to be right now. We are very grateful for everything our families have done to support us in this journey.

New Mexico is very different than Florida. Some of my favorite things: People are nicer, Doesn't rain everyday, Looking out my window just to see the beautiful mountains, Enough snow to make it feel like winter without having to shovel the driveway, Living on base and feeling safe walking around the neighborhood.
Things I miss about Florida: My amazing friends, family and church family, having the beach around the corner (even though I never really went).

Rob is enjoying his job and all the new experiences he is having, and I really love getting to be a housewife, and can not wait to bring home the new addition to our family.

Growing Like a Weed!! 32 Weeks!

32 Weeks!

Wednesday December 14, 2011

How Far Along: 32 Weeks 4 days

Baby's Size: Squash ~18.5 inches (head to foot) around 3.5-4 lbs.

Symptoms: Burping? Uncomfortable at times, Sleepy, Lazy, Moody, Carpal Tunnel

 

Sleep: Carpal tunnel is super painful at night I always end up sleeping on my hand and that wakes me up as it is painful. I am a lot more tired and seem to be falling asleep faster.

 

Belly Size: I think I just realized I am getting close to having a baby. My belly is growing like a weed as the Dr. Said. We are measuring 2 weeks a head at 34 weeks.

 

Maternity Clothes: My shirts just don't fit right anymore, so I put on a tank top first to keep my belly from peaking out from underneath.

 

Food Cravings: I have had two cravings once each. Green apple with salt and salad with creamy Italian dressing. 

Gender: Still a Girl!

Movement: She is still very active. Likes to put her booty in my ribs so I cant sit right. I think she will be very long as she is constantly digging her heals in my side. All the ultrasounds show her with her legs stretched out and ankles crossed ( glad one of us is comfy). I love every second of feeling her kick and punch me from the inside and know I will miss it.

What I miss: Being comfortable while driving and having my hands not hurt all the time.

What I'm Looking Forward to this Week: Going to meet our Doula and tour the hospital! 

VIABILITY!

I can not believe this day is here. We have finally reached 24 weeks. At this point the survival rate is about 60% if we were to deliver early. I pray we don't, but my heart is content knowing we have brought her this far. Our little Adaleigh has no idea what kind of world she is about to arrive into. There are so many people that have been praying for her and can not wait to get their hugs and kisses in.

"Adaleigh, you are one loved little girl and we can not wait to spoil you. Someday I will be able to tell you how desperately we wanted you. I know the day we bring you into this world will be the best day Daddy and I have ever had, and it will be hard to share you with all the other people that love you so much! We love you more than you will ever know. You are truly a miracle and our gift from God. We can not wait to meet you."

Daddy Rob Graduates and comes home on Friday!! I know I am just going to lose it the minute I see him. It has been a long 5 months waiting for him to come home. It will be the best feeling to wake up knowing we are not just "visiting" each other. I am taking Rob to see our little princess for the first time on an ultrasound on Saturday. I know nothing compares to being able to physically see that she is healthy and active. Daddy Rob is sooo excited.

We start our journey to New Mexico Sat or Sunday. We are more than ready to get on the road. It is going to be a long 32 hr drive, but sooooo worth it when we arrive. We have a house on base and are very ready to be a family again. I hope to be updating more now that I wont be working anymore.

Till next time...............

24 WEEKS PREGNANT!

 

Saturday, October15, 2011

24 Weeks! Ear of Corn!

Saturday, October 15, 2011

How Far Along: 24 weeks 

Baby's Size: Ear of Cob ~ 12 inches

Symptoms: Just Exhausted most days. Happy there is no more Morning sickness.

 

Sleep: Still sleeping well. I get up a few times in the night but when I do sleep it is good!

Maternity Clothes: Yoga pants are my favorite!

 

Food Cravings: No real cravings. I love all food!!

 

Gender: Still a Girl!! Adaleigh Raine Summerville is due to arrive Sometime between Late January and Early February, and we could not be more thrilled to meet our miracle!

 

Movement: Lots of movement and I love it! Addy likes to kick when I'm sitting I think I'm squishing her. She is still breech and I hope she flip soon. It is the coolest feeling ever and it calms my nerves to know she is so active.

What I miss: Nothing!! I love growing our baby girl. I'm so in love with her already. 

 
What I'm Looking Forward to this Week:   Daddy Rob comes home on Friday!! We can not wait to have him back in our lives. We have missed him like crazy.

Missing her Daddy!!

Just wanted to give everyone an update on Daddy Rob. He has graduated Basic Training and has now moved on to Tech School. I have to say I have one amazing husband that still makes me feel loved even thousands of miles away. I am having a hard time being away this long, but I know God has HUGE plans and it will all be worth it. Being away has made me appreciate our relationship so much more. I am elated that our love is this strong after five years and I pray it will continue to grow stronger.

Rob is very involved with our baby girl. Although he is not here for the ultrasounds, he has jumped in head first in all the planning. Rob designed what her room would look like and has been very involved with her name and anything we register for or buy. I think he is going to make an amazing father to our little girl.

We skype every Saturday and talk every night. Rob is doing great in school and can't wait to be done and be back with his family.

We are hopefully 1-2 weeks away from knowing where we will be stationed. We are both very anxious about that and are ready to start planning!!!

16 weeks!!

I stole this from another friends blog, but I love it. Hope you enjoy it too!!

Avocado!

How Far Along: 16 weeks 1 day

Baby's Size: Avocado (~4.5 inches)

Symptoms: Tired in the evenings but don't need naps. Round ligament pain when I cough and sneeze when stretched out. Hungry.

Sleep: Sleeping better.  Crazy dreams (as usual). Trying not to toss and turn. 

Maternity Clothes: Love the pants with the elastic band that goes up over your belly. The ones that go below my belly hurt. I bought a pair of yoga pants yesterday and I think I might live in them!!                                                                                      

Best moment this week: Creating a registry with my mom. I can not believe this is real. I actually have a beautiful healthy baby growing inside of me.

Food Cravings: No real cravings but sweets, carbs and anything sour are what sound good to me. ( I know I know all the bad stuff!!)

Gender: GIRL!!!! Rob and I are both so excited!!!! Rob has already dreamed up her serene lavender paradise of a room and I am indulging in watching him get excited about our princess to come.

Movement: Felt her move for the first time!! What an amazing feeling. Its actually a really strange feeling. I have felt her two nights in a row. I am in heaven!

What I miss: Being able to wear all the clothes in my closet. However I love being pregnant and showing off the baby bump!

Milestones: Finding out we are having a little girl and feeling her move. Both amazing things. 

The last 2 months!!

The rest of May and June have been a whirlwind.

Rob Left June 1 for Basic training in the Air Force. It is now Week 4 and he is doing great!! I get to talk to him on Sundays for 15 min. Its way to short, but its something.

We are now 9 weeks pregnant. I am feeling pretty good. I have my sick days and my super tired days and most definitely my Emotional days, but I'm loving every moment of it. I can not wait to find out the sex and stop calling it and IT!! Rob really wants a boy so that's what I'm hoping for, but a girl would be just as wonderful.

My family has been amazingly supportive. They are going to all the appointments since Robby is not here to go. I know that kills him. He asks me every week "How is my Baby doing?" makes me cry every time, but am overjoyed to tell him its doing GREAT!!

I was released from my RE and sent to a high risk DR. for next week, that was bittersweet.

I hope to post more often now as we experience new things on this journey.

God bless and thanks for all the prayers!

HOLD ON TIGHT!!

Here we are at our May post!

A little background on this month. We are now on month 3 TTC after 2 previous losses. We did 250 MG of clomid and IUI with trigger shot this month. Dr said scans looked really good and this cycle looked better than last time. At the time of IUI I had two 3 mature Follicle's and two that released. This time Hubby was able to be there and the DR. even let him squeeze the syringe. Mom got to come too. I was trying to relax but this one was much more painful than the last and I cramped for 2 days later. I ate my pineapple like usual and ate healthy and did everything I was supposed to do. I took Robby to the airport on Tuesday the 17th for four days. I was lonely so I had my lil sis come stay with me one night. She said "hey go take a test" I was like OK but it will be negative. I went in later to look at it and it was positive. I think I said something like " oh crap" and Morgan came running in. We went to the store to get a digital test. It came back negative ughh. So I waited impatiently till Friday for my blood work. Got it back around 3 and WERE PREGNANT!!!! Oh my gosh, this is so exciting and so scary. Numbers are a little on the low side so we will need to come back on Monday to see if they are doubling. If they are this will most likely be a good pregnancy.

So I went to the pharmacy and picked up my Lovenox (blood thinner for MTHFR disorder) and took my first shot. OMG burned like no tomorrow. Wow I can not believe I will be doing that everyday for the next 9 months. ughh!! But I cant wait to meet our beautiful miracle.


We are not out of the woods yet so please continue to pray that our numbers go up and I will keep you posted in real time now that we are 8 weeks.

MONTH NUMBER 2 LETS TRY SOMETHING NEW!

OK, so this is my April  post!

Prayed really hard and with the help of my wonderful parents we decided to try IUI, and Clomid. I started with 200MG of clomid and the rest of my meds and just waited. After multiple U/S and waiting I had two beautiful follicle's and it was time for the IUI. The procedure was a little painful, and it sucked that my hubby had to work that day, but my Bestie Kat was there to support me! I went home and ate Pineapple for 5 days (supposed to help with implantation) then waited another week while praying those little swimmers would just pick one egg and go to it!! I mean come on they had 2 to choose from. But after the 2 Week Wait we got a BFN (BIG FAT NEGATIVE)

This was truly a hard month for us. I had felt the Lord telling me I needed to trust and not test early and just to wait on him. (so hard for this control freak), but I know the LORDS timing is always perfect and he has my miracle baby waiting for me someday.

Cant wait to see what next month holds.